Sometimes I open this website hoping for updates and then realize I'm the one who's supposed to update it lmao.
I added a though! I'm still working on it to add all the music I've ever made, but I've already uploaded some pieces. I feel like these songs shouldn't stay hidden forever, even if they're short or uncomplete.
Enjoy! 
I haven't updated this website in so long 
Last year, while in Vienna, I loved polishing this little website and writing stuff and adding sections.
Now, studying at ETH really took the fun out of things like this. I don't wanna be on my pc like EVER again after this first year at ETH. I'm not sure I'm ready for two or three more years like this.
On the other hand, I made lots of friends and memories irl, so I'm not too disappointed.
I have some news though! I am slowly getting into social media marketing.
I need to properly research if I can take any marketing / communication / business class as electives, but I'm starting to get the experience.
I'll probably add a section for that, or remake the whole projects section to showcase my marketing projects and how they're going.
For now, if you're curious, you should check out the reels on the VIScon Instagram account.
I made the recent ones, the VISconfessions format, and people are loving it hehe
Plus, it's bringing in more followers and more visibility to VIScon, so I must be doing something right
The concert went well. It could have gone better, but no one seems to have noticed my mistakes.
Most people didn't even know the song I played.
For the first time in my life I played on a Steinway, it felt really good, I get the hype.
You can watch the video Enjoy!
I think I got a bit dumber. Ever since I stopped reading philosophy-related papers, books and blog posts, I feel a little bit dumber.
Maybe, just maybe, my bachelor's thesis was not as pointless* as I thought it was.
*compared to everyone else's cool coding projects
Maybe I should get back to reading those things, but I can barely balance studying, work and housework with the tiny shiny time-absorbing screen in my hand.
I need to figure out a way, for my own good.
I signed up for a piano concert on May 23rd. As a result, lately I've been spending more time playing the piano than on the computer. I missed this. It feels more like me when I'm playing the piano than when I'm coding. Maybe I took the wrong direction in life. I wonder where I'd be now if I went to music school after middle school.
I guess I never really got over it.
I realized that, until now, I've been listening to a specific genre of music each month. So here are the first 3 momths of 2025 in music.
This is an example of main content. I hope it looks cute :3
This is an example of a reply
In conclusion, I think this looks cute. You might see more of this in the future (or on old posts, if I feel like updating them)
See you next post, byeee
Most people don't know this, but I love eurobeat and dancing parapara. So far, however, the only two songs I'm confident in dancing are Stop Your Self Control by Marko Polo and I love egg by, well, egg (lol!). I've been trying to learn Night Of Fire too, but I feel like I almost never have time :(
I TRIED MY SWEET BANANA IT'S SO HARD HOW DO YOU EVEN GET PAST THE INTRO it's definitely too fast, I feel like it's not following the beat omg
nvm i got it lmao it was not THAT hard
here's the parapara im following btw ts is a littleeee bittttt hardd. i got the intro tho YAY
To a new year full of adventures!
Today I bought roses that look like they're made of peppermint! They look really pretty, especially next to the gingerbread house I made with my friends.
Lately I've been experimenting with eurobeat. I feel like this is good for a first attempt
I am now in Zurich for my master's at ETH. pray for me.
I think an important thing to learn, particularly for girls, is to simply accept a compliment. You don't have to return the compliment, especially if it's just out of politeness.
A few years ago, I saw a post about learning to accept compliments gracefully, and I took it very seriously. Before that, if someone said something nice about me, I felt obligated to say something nice back. Now, I just say "thank you!" or "that's so sweet of you!" or "you're so kind," instead of saying, "oh, you're [compliment] too!". In my opinion, that feels forced.
That doesn't mean you shouldn't compliment people at all. There's a time for everything. I always give compliments when someone does something I like, and I'm very vocal about it. I simply don't force myself to compliment someone just because they complimented me first. I don't care if someone gives compliments just to hear them back - that's not something you should do in the first place.
I also hate fake humility. Just accept my compliment!
In a good way though!
I love taking care of it, creating new posts, adding new pages etc. I always look forward to updating it. I created a bunch of other pages that are still offline, but hopefully will be here soon.
See you!
People are always surprised when they find out I cook without salt. It's just habit at this point!
But please, feel free to try my recipes while adding salt to your taste.
I'm sure they'll come out even tastier!
I realize my major sin is envy. I am especially jealous of other people's skills in fields we share, and of experiences they had that I haven't. It's somewhat easier to deal with once you're aware of it though. This is what I repeat to myself.
When it comes to skills, it can be a good reason to become better. It is worth to think of what you can be in the future, but only if it gives you reason to act in the present. Otherwise, fantasizing about possible futures without taking action is counterproductive.
When it comes to experiences, it is useless to think about what you could have been and what you could have done in the past. Of how different you'd be if you grew up in a different environment.
You wouldn't be where you are if you followed a different life path.
Are you happy with your current life? To be honest, I am. I have the privilege to study and work abroad, travel, make friends, and create good memories. Just in the past year, I've been to Switzerland, Liechtenstein, Austria, Finland, France, Spain, and Slovakia. I probably wouldn't have been able to do any of this if my past hadn't led me to where I am now.
So what is it that I'm so jealous of? The stories that others recount. I feel a strange nostalgia for memories that don't belong to me. Sometimes I wish I'd had a wilder childhood and teenage years. I wish I'd hung out more and done more daring things. I wish I'd done this, and I wish I'd been that.
But in the end, people like me for who I am now, not for what I could have been.
They appreciate me as I am, not for what I'm not.
And at the end of the day, your current, real self is the only one that truly matters.
When I said I needed a new style for my website, I really meant it. I'm happy with how it looks now, but it didn't always look this pretty. You'll understand better by taking a look at my older website iterations. I'll leave the links here, and the websites will be accessible for as long as Altervista allows me to keep them online.
My first website from high school. So extra
and full of stuff! You can move around the bird in the projects page btw lol
My second website from university. I kept this template for my first iteration of the github-hosted website, and made a dark mode for it. Sadly I don't have any screenshots of it.
I also had an arcade phase in late 2022 / early 2023 lol!
Please don't laugh too hard at them!
I'm debating whether it's worth publishing this song. It's the credit scene music from my maturità videogame. It's been on YouTube for quite a while now, but I've never made it public. Or maybe I should remake it before putting it online.
I'm not sure what to do...
I think having a website like this is really nice. I can write what I want, and I don't feel the same urgency of social media. I don't notify people when I post and I don't wait for their likes. Sometimes, people will mention stuff I've written here. It's a lovely surprise, since I don't expect anyone to check on here.
Everyone should have a space like this
I have no idea what has gotten into me, but I'm back with another snippet. I guess I'm feeling inspired? In that case, I'll try to make the most of this wave of inspiration.
It won't last long I fear.
I finished the song! Might upload a 10min version on YouTube. It's making me want to start making videogames again... Periodic Kingdom, I'm looking at you.
Bye!
I am currently writing a new song but, in the middle of writing it, I realized how similar it is to Undella Town from Pokémon Black & White. Hate when this happens. But it sounds nice so I might finish it anyway. Here's a snippet!
Let me know what you think
I am now 22. I went to the seaside with my friends today. I was also dressed really pretty. They gifted me a photo album and I'm the happiest! I really love taking photos with my friends, and they know how much it means to me. I was really surprised.
It was my first birthday without my family.
That's all for now byeee
This is an old thought I had a while ago.
I think cooks should not necessarily be alchemist-healers (see Kirby cook). I think a good cook design
would be a wizard-warrior full of war wounds with a pyromancer build. This *might* be due to personal
experience (I am full of war wounds from cooking lol)
One of my friends told me they have a gnome-thief cook in their campaign.
It would be fun to see the three cook brothers together.
Probably it would even be funnier to have a team of just these three cooks: the warrior, the healer and the thief. Sounds balanced enough.
Byee, Sofia
I am currently in Vienna for an internship at the Institute of Science and Technology Austria. new adventures await.
A couple of weeks ago, I presented my Bachelor thesis. Given my previous projects, one would expect my thesis to be on something like Computer Graphics or Quantum Computing. And I *did* ask the quantum computing prof to do a thesis on quantum communication or cryptography! But in the end, I did something completely different.
My thesis was on free will. 
Now, if you're curious and want to read what it's all about, head over to this repo.
If you want to know how I *really* feel about free will, keep reading.
Let me just tell you. Pretty much my whole life, I used to think there is no such thing as free will. We are not free; we are bound by our experiences, emotions, neurons, hormones, and so on. Though I'd always admit that humans probably needed to believe in some form of self-determination to not go crazy.
However, after working on this thesis and after reading so much on free will, I'm not saying I completely changed my mind, but I became obsessed with finding free will somewhere, anywhere, in any amount, shape and form. I'm no longer happy nor satisfied with the idea that there is no free will at all.
Whatever William James said: "My first act of free will shall be to believe in free will".
Okay that's all for now, feel free to read my thesis and let me know what you think. There are so many additional papers, books, articles, and so on you could read on free will, so try not to fall down the rabbit hole!
Love, Sofia
Super excited that I'm finally updating this website!
I have seen and heard of many instances of people withholding affection, usually after one or many bad experiences with dating or friendship.
Not because they are not capable of giving affection anymore, but because they find comfort in knowing that, should this relationship go sour, they didn't "waste" affection for these people, hoping to reduce the pain in case the relationship ends.
I believe this is pointless, because the pain of losing a relationship (platonic or romantic) will be the same regardless of how much affection you gave.
Some could argue that it isn't true and that the loss of a relationship where you put more effort in hurts more than one where you were withholding affection.
To that, I'd respond that usually the "additional" pain doesn't come from the loss of the relationship itself but from a feeling of foolishness, the embarrassment of being taken advantage of.
So what I believe is people should give all their affection, without letting the fear of losing them and the pain caused by other people influence this.
However, I also believe that one shouldn't empty oneself to give to others. That's when they're taken advantage of.
I believe that if you give to others with the pure intention of giving, while enjoying giving and without draining yourself, you won't feel that sense of foolishness if the relationship ends.
You'll instead feel that you did the right thing, you did what you were supposed to do, and if things went this way, then so be it.
The point is you didn't give because you were trying to get something out of it, but because you purely enjoy giving affection for the sake of it.
Of course I'm speaking from my personal experience with friendships and relationships, but it has all led me to believe and feel that giving affection of any kind is good and right.
And I found that it gets affection back to you, even though you should be doing it selflessly and for the sake of love itself.
